HAPPY?

so i'm twenty-toooooot.. now what?

eto na ata ang pinakama-drama kong birthday. hehe. wala lang. nasa stage na din siguro ako ng buhay na kailangang kumilos para hindi mapag-iwanan.. grabe na ang sacrifices ko lately.. sana magbunga na din in time.. kumikilos naman ako eh. hindi nga lang mashadong sineswerte. pero ayos na din. mababaw lang naman ang mga problema ko. kailangan ko lang magtanggal ng konting luho sa buhay. minsan naglalakad ako sa buendia. nakita ko may mga mamang naghuhukay sa gilid ng bangketa. parang sa drainage or something. nagpupukpok sila. naghuhukay ng lupa. umaga, tanghali, gabi. ultimo madaling araw, na-witness ko na rin yun minsan. bigla kong naisip na mas-swerte pa ako sa ibang tao. biro mo sila, ginagawa yun para kumita ng pera. grabe noh? buti na lang ako hindi ganun. kaya imbes na humiling ng humiling, naappreciate ko bigla kung ano ang meron ako. nagpasalamat ako bigla sa mga blessings ko.

ayun. so feel ko lang talaga magdrama. bakit ba? pagbigyan niyo na lang ako. hehe. wag niyo ko mashadong seryosohin. masaya naman ako. maarte lang talaga ako. hehe. pero wala na talaga akong mahihiling pa sa pamilya ko. sa mga kaibigan ko. wala. mahal ko kayong lahat! naks!

share ko lang. nagpaburn ako ng KEANE sa isang friend ko. (mashado ka nang nababanggit sa mga blogs ko! pansin ko lang! kaya di muna kita babanggitin dito! hehehe!) yun album nilang Hopes and Fears. gusto ko lang i-share tong mga kantang to. papakinggan ko to hanggang mamayang mga alas-sinco ng umaga. hehe. (kasalukuyang 1:25a na.)

"Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

And if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?

"Everybody's Changing"

You say you wander your own land

But when I think about it

I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking

And I can see the pain in your eyes

Says everybody's changing

And I don't know why So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same You're gone from here

And soon you will disappear

Fading into beautiful light

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right

wala lang. medjo nakaka-relate lang. siguro ang pinaka-nagpa-spark ng drama mode ko ay yung nakita ni pia sa petron nlex a few hours ago... sana ako na lang ang nakakita? o buti na lang hindi ako yun nakakita? hindi ko din alam.

basta ang alam ko.. masaya ako. (maarte lang! hehe!) masaya ako! birthday ko eh! salamat sa mga nakaalala! Ü

BIRTHDAY BLOG

hey you guys! get your pens ready.. this is a list of what i want for my birthday...

1 boracay (ok, so this is not actually 'tangible', but i wanna go back there! bora misses me already! hehe!)
2 pentium 4 pc (with the stand and all ha!)
3 my own car (something i nearly had.. :c except that my pop gave it to my sister instead.. :c darn..)
4 AMF equalizer for my squier guitar (exciting!)
5 guitar amplifier (mas exciting!)
6 cd album (maximum capacity ha.)
7 neckband earphones (for my m.t. career)
8 bass slippers (but havaiianas will do!)
9 saisaki buffet (well, this one -- i already got! even better! circles buffet at shang makati! thanks paras!!!)
10 14" tv (just enough for the space i have rexerved for it in my room)
11 one tree hill dvds (meron na ba?)
12 surround speaker for my room (with installation please!)
13 black chuck taylors (maiba lang..)
14 yonex badminton racket (any muscle power series)
15 running shoes (my current pair is about to retire..)
16 basketball shoes (my current pair has long retired!)
17 badminton shoes (never had one.)
18 iPod (shuffle)
19 complete Twisted series of Jessica Zafra ( --big smile-- )
20 Jack Johnson's latest album (in between dreams)
21 american idol greatest soul classics cd (nawala ko ata yun akin.. :c)
22 one tree hill soundtrack (meron na ba nito sa pinas?)
23 mini-vacuum cleaner (for my room)
24 autographed dedication from (at least one of) these people: cynthia alexander, ely buendia, barbie almabis, gary valenciano, john mayer, nuno bettencourt, waymon boone, jack johnson, amy ray and emily saliers, natalie merchant, dave matthews, and yes... usher too!!! hehe! (in my dreams? let's see..)
25 roxy shirt (mababaw din naman ako minsan. hehe.)
26 Weekend (burberry perfume)
27 mountain or road bike (either of the two)
28 sleepcare pillow (daw. meron ata nito sa shang..)

hmmm.. i guess that's it.. for now... hehe.. c'mon you guys!! swipe!

is 'rallying' the 'in' thing nowadays?

Last week…

On my way to makati, I had to take a couple of detours. Rain, traffic and closed streets are really not a good combination. Closed streets, you ask? Oh yeah. These rallying people are everywhere! I go to scout area, they’re there. I go to quezon ave, they’re there. I go to makati – and they are still freakin’ there!

I am no political person. I don’t care much about religion, how much more in politics? I don’t give a damn about what other people have to say about the government and our country’s situation. (oo, wala talaga akong kwentang mamamayan.) I’m just pissed off with how they want to get their message across. What is wrong with these people? I MEAN – WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?!! The person they wanna oust is designated in malacañang. What the hell are they doing in makati?!!! They just wanna burden the business district, they wanna paralyze the streets, they wanna cause inconvenience to all! Mashadong papansin! As if it’ll help.

I thought traffic in this country couldn’t get any worse. They proved me wrong. And I hate them even more for that.

not-so call center experience

since wala naman akong trabaho, might as well try ko na din sa call center kahit part-time lang, bago ko ituloy ang talagang binabalak ko sa buhay ko. akala ko maku-culture shock ako sa mga inglisan. i was more of disappointed. ok pa siguro sa mga applicants. pero hindi ko maintindihan ang mga empleyado ng mga kumpanyang ito pag pumapalpak sila. hindi ko matanggap. i expected more from them. pero what the heck. basahin niyo ito. hindi din ako kagalingan magsalita ng ingles, sa totoo lang. pero nagbabaon naman ako ng ingles pag nag-aapply ako. sana yun iba nagbabaon din.

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receptionist: when was your original skeydule?
ako: excuse me?..
receptionist: when was your original skeydule?
ako: oh.. i was originally scheduled last friday morning... (schedule pala!)
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interviewer: if i gave you a million dollars, what will you do with it?
applicant: (with so much enthusiasm) i will invest it in the stock market, or any business where it will grow even more! when faced by an opportunity, i'd grab it! (sabay may gri-nab sha sa mid-air. ewan ko ba. langaw ata. may actions pa sha ha. anu daw? sana sakin nalang tinanong yun!)
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interviewer: how do you deal with angry customers in the restaurant you used to manage?
applicant: i joke with them.
ako: (smile.)
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applicant: ... and i love to play bolleyvall.
ako: (so do i.. so do i..)
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exam proctor: ... just press the back bootun.
ako: (blank face.. sabay tingin sa computer..) oh.. back button..
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interviewer: it says in your resume that in your previous job, you were a receptionist and a CSR (customer service representative)? how is this so?
applicant: i worked as a full-time receptionist and a part-time CSR. i worked as a part-time CSR for the extra income.. blah.. blah.. blah..
interviewer: and it also says here that you gave out medicine and applied first aid when needed?
applicant: yes ma'm. i was also a part-time nurse there.
ako: (hija.. registered ka ba?!)
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..habang pinapakinig ako ng actual call..
agent: ma'm, could you please tell me when did you received your last refund?
ako: (sumalubong kilay sabay tingin sa account manager at hr personnel na katabi ko. sa loob-loob ko lang... "did you trainED this person properly?!)
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wala lang. mejo surprised lang ako. revelations during my not-so call center experience.

i had a 10pm interview one time. nakakaloka diba?

IS THERE AN EASY WAY OUT?

i am deeply touched by people who texted and called me when they heard of my resignation. thank you, thank you, thank you! sometimes i feel like i owe an explanation to these people. but then, the reasons behind my resignation would be better left said to close friends, rather than letting the world know.

at this point i just wanna share a few thoughts.

see, we all go through difficulties in life. and it's a choice whether you wanna stay in there or leave that situation. after leaving the company, i thought.. 'whew.. that wasn't easy..' (fyi, it was one year in the making..) which led me to asking -- IS THERE AN EASY WAY OUT? out of something uncomfortable, something you don't wanna do, out of sh*t?

i say no. i think there's never an easy way out. life's hard. how can anything be easy? sometimes there's even the ONLY way out, but never an easy way out. one may even come out bruised and wounded, but even so, the fact that she was able to leave something behind (say, work that one can't take anymore) takes so much courage. one should be proud of that. i am proud of that.

this is my second time to resign from work. and that doesn't make it any easier. i left some friends behind.. on the lighter side, i can easily run away from the two inaanaks that i have earned. (that's one inaanak for every year of service!) hehe. joke.. but seriously -- i will definitely miss you guys. basta lahat kayo. you know who you are. (sorry, but i was never good at enumerations.) you're one of the reasons why leaving was never easy. you sure made my stay there fun. but i just had to leave. i hope those brilliant people in there will soon do the same. (once again, you know who you are.. hehehe..)

some found it a stupid move, considering i do not have another work to transfer to yet. but hey, that's not their problem anymore. (i would like to remind them that's that's my problem na. hehe!) i just wanted to get out of that company. now that i am, i shall take life from here.

cheers to the good times!

WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD

i've said this over and over again.

i am blessed with wonderful people in my life.

i have a wonderful family.
i have wonderful friends.
which make my world a wonderful one.

some loser who wanna destroy the wonderful relationships i have with these people could just roll over and die...

.. as i drink coffee every morning celebrating ...

WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD!